My life!

Some of you guys know me really well and some of you don't! I have been going through a lot of stuff lately that I would like to share! So far I have only told a few people. If you have any negative comments stop reading now. I don't need them! 

    I eat a lot when I'm alone!  When I go to Wal-mart I buy a lot of junk food. I then eat all of it before Manny gets home and then I hide the evidence!  One day it was popcorn chicken, mozzarella sticks, a mountain dew, and a milky way. Another day it was pizza rolls (20 count), 3 chocolate chip cookies, 2 dessert lunchables, and a pop! I ate all of this stuff in one sitting. The whole time I was in Wal-mart I was hoping I wouldn't see anyone I knew. I felt like an addict. I might be one! I believe I'm addicted to food. Some people don't think that's a thing and I do. People are addicted to alcohol, drugs, sex, and a lot of other stuff. Then who is to say you can't be addicted to food? I feel like I can't even go to Wal-mart alone. Now I have to find out what triggers these eating episodes. Once I figure that out I will be able to finally lose weight. Another thing that happens is when I start losing weight something triggers in my head and I start eating junk again. I think some of it is that when the scale shows loss and I don't see any changes it depresses me. Even though I know it's gonna take awhile to see change. My brain just gets fed up I guess and that is what makes me eat. I'm sure it happens to most people that are trying to lose weight. I just need to find out how to get over it. The only time I feel depressed at all is when I think about my weight. I hate being embarrassed about my weight. I'm so ready to get rid of the weight. I'm ready to get Healthy!!!

  I wrote this almost a month ago. I have been doing a little better with this but I still have slip ups. I will post more about how I have felt another time. I can only bare so much of my soul at a time! lol 

God Bless!
Shanny

God Loves Me Anyway!

                             One thing I have always known is that God loves me no matter what I have done. God will always love me. I sin every day yet God still loves me. We crucified His Son yet He loves us! Jesus had to die for us to have a relationship with God.  
                    How many people have said they loved you but have stopped talking to you for something that you have done that was a mistake? (or a misunderstanding) People will come and go in your life. Even if you think they will be there forever. I think we all have had people leave our lives even after they say they love us. The thing is is God will never leave you and guess what???? He will always love you! I don't take saying I love you lightly. I think we should all be that way. God showed us how much He loved us when He let Jesus die on that cross. (I know I keep jumping around but I'm typing what just pops into my head.) 

     I heard this song today that reminded me that no matter what God loves me anyway!  That my friends is the best feeling in the world! I hope all of you know that. God will never leave your side. It might feel like God isn't there sometimes but He is trying to let you figure out that you have to trust Him. That is what this year to me is going to be about. Trusting God more. I'm putting my health in His hands and our financial stuff in His hands. Everything should be in His hands but those are the areas I need to work on more! 

God is there 100% of the time. Let Him be!!! Life goes much easier when you let Him drive! 
Just remember God loves you anyway!
So if you think He doesn't because of all your mistakes you are wrong. 
God loves you more than anyone here on earth!

The question was raised
As my conscience fell
A silly, little lie
It didn’t mean much
But it lingers still
In the corners of my mind
Still you call me to walk
On the edge of this world
To spread my dreams and fly
But the future’s so far
My heart is so frail
I think I’d rather stay inside
But You love me anyway
It’s like nothing in life that I’ve ever known
You love me anyway
Oh Lord, how You love me
How You love me
It took more than my strength
To simply be still
To seek but never find
All the reasons we change
The reasons I doubt
And why do loved ones have to die?
But You love me anyway
It’s like nothing in life that I’ve ever known
You love me anyway
Oh Lord, how You love me
I am the thorn in Your crown
But You love me anyway
I am the sweat from Your brow
But You love me anyway
I am the nail in Your wrist
But You love me anyway
I am Judas’ kiss
But You love me anyway
See now, I am the man that called out from the crowd
For Your blood to be spilled on this earth shaking ground
Yes then, I turned away with this smile on my face
With this sin in my heart tried to bury Your grace
And then alone in the night, I still called out for You
So ashamed of my life, my life, my life
But You love me anyway
Oh, God… how you love me
You love me anyway
It’s like nothing in life that I’ve ever known
You love me anyway
Oh Lord, how You love me
You love me, You love me
You love me, You love me
How You love me
How You love me
How You love me 

God Bless!!!!

Shanny!