So last Sunday at church I cried for the first time in a service. The only time I usually cry in a church is if I'm at a funeral. We were talking about what God loves. They played this video at the end of it and it just made me think a lot. I am getting teared eyed thinking about it again. I'll post the video at the end of this blog. It just made me think that no matter how we look at ourselves that God thinks we are beautiful! I wish I would have known that more when I was in high school! I think if a lot of people knew this there would be less of low self-esteem in the world. God wants us to know that no matter what we have done that if we want to change that He can help us. He can mold you into what He wants you to be if you will let Him!!! I guess just watching that video it just hit me more that if you are willing to let Him change your life He will. You don't have to do it by yourself! Tell God that you let go and are letting Him run your life now and just see how much better your life will be! I know mine is so much better when I let Him lead! It is my one wish in life that people know how much God loves them! If only they knew. It would change their life forever! Once I get all my stuff together that God wants me to do with my life I won't be stopped! God put me on this earth to do His work and I will! My mom and I were supposed to die when she had me. My mom has always told me that that's why I survived! God has a big plan for me! I just can't wait to see what it is! I know it's to help people. Just not sure what field of it He wants me to do! So pray with me when I ask Him to show me where and what He wants me to do it! If anyone needs a shoulder to lean on or just needs someone to listen, I am here for you! Don't hesitate to contact me! If you have questions about Jesus ask me! If I'm not sure of the answer I will ask someone I know that can lead me in the right direction! Just because we are Christians it doesn't mean we know everything! I love you all!
So not only do we have to be physically healthy we have to be spiritually healthy! A healthy relationship with God is the most important relationship to have! You can always depend on Him to always be there. Reading your bible, talking to God in prayer, worshipping Him, and going to church! He wants you to gather together to worship Him. I used to think it didn't matter if I went to church because I loved Him! But I know now that isn't all that it takes. Having a good church to go to is key in your relationship with God. That way if you have questions you don't feel weird about asking. Also so you might see that you aren't the only one going through trials that come along with being a christian! Manny and I have finally found our church home! We are excited about going to church again! Manny is reading every day and I am reading every day! I also keep a prayer journal! I love that God has helped us to make Him first in our marriage! For where two or three gather together as my followers, I am there among them. Matthew 18:20 God Bless all of you!
So today a young man killed himself at school. I know the superintendent of stillwater schools is saying she doesn't know if it was from bullying because it wasn't reported. That it would be in there system. Most kids think that if they tell on the person that is doing the bullying things will get worse for them. I know when I was bullied I never told any adults. My friends knew but my parents and or teachers didn't know. It's easy to act like nothing is happening at school at home because your parents aren't there. It really breaks my heart that kids this young are committing suicide. People are just so cruel. It's crazy to think kids that young are so cruel. I wonder where they get it from!!!! Maybe their parents or stuff they watch on tv! There is so much hate in this world that it is unbelievable! These kids feel like they are alone and the only way to make the bullying stop is to commit suicide and thats not the case! If everyone would just show a little bit of love to everyone they met I think the world would be a better place! I just can't get over how many kids have killed themselves because of bullying! It just breaks my heart! This is something really strong to me because like I said I was bullied. I got bullied at school and on the bus. All because I was a little over weight. I almost got in trouble one time in 1st grade because someone was making fun of me and I hit him for it. I really did act like it didn't bother me hoping that it would make it stop but it didn't really. It just made them do it more. I'm surprised how much love I have for everyone even though they did that to me. It's all because of Jesus I can tell you that much. If it weren't for having Jesus in my life maybe I would have thought about doing something like that. But I knew that I was never alone because I had Jesus!!! I never thought about killing myself so don't think I did! Never even crossed my mind. I don't even think I knew what that meant when I was teased. Jesus got me through it with His unfailing love! Even though they made fun of me I knew that Jesus loved me for who I was!!! Thank you God for loving each and everyone of us!!!! So before you start to say something mean to someone stop and think if someone was saying that to you! How would you feel? Look out for each other!!!
So today wasn't the best for Manny and I! We had a big bill pop up today that we can't really afford. We got some help with it. Not proud of letting someone help us. So instead of getting upset about everything what happened I stopped and prayed. Recently Manny and I have recommitted our lives to God. We have been reading the bible everyday. So today's events made me realize how bad satan is going to try and attack us right now. So I told Manny put your whole faith into God that He will help us with this. As soon as I prayed I felt a since of peace come over me. I know God helped not sure how He did but He did! I just kept telling Manny this is satan, this is satan. Satan can stuff it. He ain't getting us. God has us completely!!! Anyways that is my rant for today lol God Bless you guys!!!!
Faith: is essentially trust and faithfulness is dependability or trustworthiness. Throughout the Scriptures faith is the trustful human response to God's self-relevation via His words and His actions. God initiates the relationship between Himself and human beings. He expects people to trust Him; failure to trust Him in essence the first sin. (got that from the Holman illustrated dictionary) What does faith mean to you? To me it's putting everything I believe and trust into God. It is very hard sometimes to have faith but if you take that leap God is there to catch you cause you have faith in Him. In my daily bible reading I am in Deuteronomy and Matthew. Doing OT and NT at the same time. Anyway it was talking about our God being a jealous God.( In deuteronomy 4,5,6 all talk about God being a jealous God) He doesn't want you to have other god's than Him. He shows us so much love even for all the stupid things we do He still loves us like crazy! Why wouldn't you want to put your faith in Him. God hates the sin not the sinner. He doesn't like what you do but God is still crazy in love with you. God wants you to choose Him. It's like when you love someone so much that you can't live without them and them saying I don't love you or even care about you. I'm sure how you would feel in that moment God feels that every day when people turn from Him! He wants you to turn and say, "God I want you and I need you!" I can't stress enough how badly God wants you. I mean He did send His only Son to die for our sins so we could have a relationship with Him. How many of you would let your kid die to have a relationship with someone? No one would. That is why God did that to show you how much He LOVES YOU AND HOW BAD HE WANTS TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU!!!!!! Just think about it!!!!! I was gonna write this whole thing about faith but God had other reasons when I started typing. I think what I wrote about could be faith. I felt so convicted to write this that I was tearing up while typing it. So I will leave you with a few bible verses about faith: But people are counted as righteous, not because of their work, but because of their faith in God who forgives sinners. Romans 4:5 But that does not mean we want to dominate you by telling you how to put your faith into practice. We want to work together with you so you will be full of joy, for it is by your own faith that you stand firm. 2 Corinthians 1:24 5 There is one Lord, one faith, one baptism, 6 and one God and Father, who is over all and in all and living through all. Ephesians 4:5-6
Don't let them waste their time in endless discussion of myths and spiritual pedigrees. These things only lead to meaningless speculations, which don't help people live a life of faith in God. 1 Timothy 1:4
Hey guys! I know I haven't posted in awhile and I'm sorry! I know not many people of anyone reads my blog but I'm going to keep doing it because it helps me get some feelings out! Lately I have been feeling like God wants me to do something big with my life but I just don't know what that is yet. I pray about it all the time that He will show me what it is He wants me to do. I have been getting up everyday and going directly to reading my bible. I am trying to read through the whole thing. Something I have noticed with doing this each day is that no matter how my day is I feel wonderful inside. Even if it's the worst day I feel peace inside me. I knoe it's because God is with me! I think I am just now feeling that He is with me with every step I take! I always knew that but now I feel it. So if you don't feel like I would strongly encourage you to start reading His word every day! As I am writing this blog I'm listening to Klove and the perfect song came on that kinda goes along with what I'm talking about! The song is Call on Jesus by Nicole C. Mullen! If you have never heard that song go listen to it. So with me talking about doing what God wants me to do with my life I have looked up a few versus to kinda go along with this here are a few: I know a lot of people probably already know this one! 11 For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord."They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. 12 In those days when you pray, I will listen. Jeremiah 29:11-12 For God saved us and called us to live a holy life. He did this, not because we deserved it, but because that was His plan from before the beginning of time-to show us His grace through Christ Jesus. 2 Timothy 1:9 You can make many plans, but the Lord's purpose will prevail. Proverbs 19:21 24 Don't you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! 25 All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prizethat will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize. 26 So I run with purpose in every step. I am not just shadowboxing. 27 I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it should. Otherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified. 1 Corinthians 9:24-27 I know that was a lot of verses but there were many more I found but those were just a few of my favorites. So I won't stop praying that God will show me what my purpose is and what His plans are for me. Till that day comes I will study His word and talk to Him every day! I will talk tomorrow about something else that is on my mind. God bless you guys!
So I have been worried about what my hospital bill was gonna be. I got it in the mail today I opened it while I was walking my dog back to the house and I almost fell to my knees. Next to the amount that I owe says $0.00! I started crying and thanking God. My mom thinks it's just cause it hasn't really gone through the insurance yet but I am gonna believe that it was God. I still get teary thinking about it. I am just amazed!
God Thank you so much for helping me. You have taken away what was wrong with me and now you have helped me with the hospital bill. You are the all mighty God! You are in control Lord. I love you and thank you again for everything you do for me. In Jesus Name, Amen!
So I have to tell you guys! Just pray pray pray!!!!!
